This is me 38, baby Serina 4 months. We're standing in the doorway to my mother's kitchen a hot day in June. Serina was seen and loved, chosen, even before she was born. I found it scary to be a Mom. To do all the right things. Make all the right decisions. She was so small, so fragile. It's even more difficult now. In this moment she's up for her final exams. All I can do is pray.