Wednesday, May 30, 2007

IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE


My father is struggling dying.
With his strong and willful heart, that might take some time.
My poor, kind, wise, caring, loving and yet humble daddy.

My daughter is making her final exams.
In some short months she'll leave the nest, flying.
I know our lives are about to change dramatically.
For the time being I'm living in limbo.
Can hardly breathe.
I'm squeezing Gunnar's hands till mine ache.

22 comments:

Terry said...

Oh Felisol...Such sad times you are going through!

I think of you all the time and Bernie and I talk about you just like you are part of the family.

My heart aches for your mother.

Your daughter is so beautiful!
I was never a mother but if I was, I would think the hardest thing of all would be to let them leave the nest.
How hard that will be!!
Will she be gone far?

I am on my way to prayer meeting and I will be praying for your whole family...Love Terry

Curious Servant said...

Felise... I don't know what to say... I know these are difficult times for you, and they are abuot to get more so... so I won't waste your time with empty words...

But you know a little of me, and you know that I have and wil pray pray for you and your family.

Thank you for your kind words on my blog recently. You are a gem.

in brotherly love,

Will

Anonymous said...

"Jesus said, 'Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27

Praying for you daily,
the little Pilgrim Pal, "Hebrews 11:1"

Sue Seibert said...

Life is very hard at times, Felisol. We must do the best we can and trust in God.

Please know that we, your blogging friends, are praying for you and with you. May God bless your family and you.

Terry said...

Dear Felisol
Betty and I just got back from the doctor.
We both went into the room with Dad so that we could listen to what the doctor had to say.
He took Dad's blood pressure and said it was perfect and he listened to his heart and lungs and said there was no problem, and the blockage in his neck vein was passable, but why Dad is getting dizzy, he is puzzled.
He says it might be from the anti-biotics that Dad was taking for his urinary infection.
But how could it be seeing as Dad has been dizzy for the last few months?
He did tell us that Dad is on the list to see about the operation for his blocked arteries and we should know within the next few days when that appoinment will be.
So far Dad is feeling better but we will wait and see.
Thank you so much for your prayers Felisol and I will continue to pray for your own "poor, kind, wise, caring, loving and yet humble daddy" who is a child of the King!..Love Terry


Betty just phoned as I was closing this letter Felisol.
She told me that she phoned the doctor and that she was told Dad will have the operation on June 7th.
Oh now my heart is hurting and now my eyes are crying and I am worried...Why??
I wish I had more faith just like you do Felisol!

Pilot Mom said...

Felisol, I have via Terry's blog. I heard the need for prayer and began praying. A short time later Terry commented on my post that your dear father is now home with his Lord and Savior. I am continuing to pray. You see, I just lost my 90 yr old mother January 29, 2007. I know what you are experiencing and can pray with empathy and compassion.

May His arms circle around you and your family giving strength and comfort as you move through the next days and weeks ahead. Oh, how we rejoice for we have a mighty Savior, but oh how we grieve for the loss here on earth. Rejoice! For it is but a temporary parting. We are assured we will see our dear loved ones again who are saved!

(((Hugs)))

jel said...

am sorry you lost ya dad ,

came over from Terry's


huggs

Felisol said...

Dear little Pilgrim Pal and True beliver,
I'm so glad you've found me.. So safe to know you're praying.
So happy to tell it works.
My father went to Jesus after some hard breathing,like climbing a steep hill. He then breathed lightly two times, I asked him to say hallo to Jesus from meand he was gone. It was all peace and calm. June first at 03.33 in the morning waas time time he went. At the fourth night guard.
I'll remember both you two and your neighbours in my prayers and thank you for being there.
Fel

Sue Seibert said...

Felisol, I am so sorry about your father. Our prayers are with you and
your family. Feel God's love all around you and around your father.
May he rest in peace and may perpetual light shine upon him.

Sue/Sioux Seiberta

jel said...

dear Felisol,

I losted my dad, in o4, he was in the hosp. too and we were there with him, and I got to talk to him.
but thought he was doing better, so my mom and I left to do something, and when we came back he was gone. we miss them , but they are in no more pain, and we have our memories.
my thoughts and are with you!
huggs

Terry said...

Dear Felisol...I have not been able to get out of my mind almost all night that your precious dad is spending his first Lord's Day in heaven!!
That it so good, eh?
Soon we will all be there spending ALL of our days in heaven.
Bless you dear friend, and give your mom and Gunnar and your little girl a big hug from us all..Love Terry

Curious Servant said...

I've been praying for you and your family, sister in Christ.

I was thinking about you when I drew the picture in our prayer room which I put at the bottom of my most recent post.

I will continue to pray for you as you go through these next few steps.

Love,

Will

Unknown said...

Takker De my friend.

May God keep you, bless you and watch over you and your loving family.

You are a good daughter to sit with him all that time and to be there as he embarked on his journey into the kingdom.

Love, Justin

Terry said...

Dear Felisol
Thanks for telling me when the funeral is.
I thought it was Thursday but seeing as it is tomorrow, I will be praying.
I will tell Pilot-mom too because she is setting time aside to pray for you too!
God's blessings my friend...Love Terry

Anonymous said...

Dearest Felisol,

I will be praying, too, as I have been for awhile. I've been meaning to come over here, but haven't gotten a chance till now.

With Lots of Love
and Many Prayers,
Rose

Anonymous said...

I don't know what time the funeral is at today, but I'm keeping you in prayer. I just read your note to me, which has probably been there sometime, but I haven't been here in awhile.
I so wish I could be right there at the funeral, or make you a meal, or give you a card...but with these miles between us I pray the Lord's Love will surround you, His Peace fill you, His wisdom power you, and His Joy be your strength for every step you take.

Peace to you and yours,
The lil Pilgrim pal

Terry said...

Dear Felisol
I know that you are twelve or so hours ahead of us so I would just like to echo the words of lil Pilgrim pal Hebrews 11:1 and wish that there were somehow that I could help you!

I thought of you through out the day and was thinking of your sadness and yet your joy of the celebration of your dear dad's life.
Oh how great the knowledge that you will be seeing him again and for the knowledge that WE will be meeting him someday!
No wonder we need eternity in heaven because after a few thousand or so years of praising Jesus, we will spend a few thousand more meeting fellow Christians and hearing their stories and then for the rest of eternity we will ALL be together praising the One Who died for us!!
Of course I guess there IS no rest of eternity because it will never end, eh?

My thoughts continue to be with you dear Felisol.
I told my dad that you are praying for him all the way from Norway!
I will keep you updated....Love Terry

Felisol said...

Dear Rose,
Psalm 37 has been given me twice before, in 1977 and in year 2000.
I've been sheltered by psalm 37 this past 24 hours, and I shall have my Bible lying beside my computer opened at that very psalm for the time coming.
The funeral went far better than anyone could hope for, thanks to all my praying friends and God, who answers prayers.

Felisol said...

Dearest Lil Pilgrim Pal,
your blessing came true. I was strengthened, found lots of peace and love. So did indeed my mum, daughter and my rock, husbband Gunnar.
The wisdom part, well, God's ways are higher than mine.
I'll just have to continue praying for more of his grace and patience.
Still remembering your neighbours and yousis and yourself..
Felisol

Anonymous said...

Thanks so much for your prayers, too!

Lil Pilgrim Pal

Terry said...

Dear Felisol...
I got a letter from Hebrews 11:1 today and I was asked to tell you the contents of the letter.
I would never ask you for your email address, so what I am wanting to do is print out the letter on your comment section and then you could just, along with this comment here just don't publish it , OK?
It is a very sweet letter and I was requested to let you know the contents of it.

I DO have my email on my site Felisol, but I understand completely if you would prefer that I do it this way.
That is such a good idea you have that you can choose wether or no that you publish a comment!!

Now how to tell me?
Just call me Teresa in your next comment on my blog, alrght, then I will know that you got this letter, and then I will just type you out the other letter on your comment section here....Love Terry

Thank you so much for the ring of prayer that you are making for my Dad.

Felisol said...

Sweetest Theresa,
I've already sent you my e-mail address.