Friday, July 06, 2012

Good days after this?

My Mom four days ago. Today she fell, broke her arm, injured her eye.

I woke up sweating,
My breath was short from running.
From dreams and mares of reality.
His soothing voice was rhythmically sounding:
"There will be good days after this."


How can you tell;
She lied there screaming,
Her arm was broken and her eye was bleeding?
He hid his face, but the kept repeating;
"There will be good days after this."


I can foresee tomorrow,
A movie still rerunning; of horrors,cries,
Of helpless agony and endless nights of black isolation,
You failing angel, why did you slumber, I need a wonder;
"Will there be good days after this?"


I am no prophet,
I need relay on promises, kept  step by step,
Nothing any more  of cruelty hidden behind a mirror darkly.
Walk with us upon the water, stretch out your hands;
We will need good days after this.

14 comments:

Terry said...

is mom ljung ok felisol?...i don't think i could tell her there will be good days ahead because i don't even know what she is going through...the only good days ahead i think are surely in heaven...i feel so sad for her and for you guys...i love you..love terry

Felisol said...

Dear Terry,
My Mom was very OK four days ago when we celebrated her birthday in the little hut in the mountain. (As you will see from the picture).
Today she felt like gardening while my brother rested after dinner he had prepared for both of them.
She fell, broke her arm, hurt her eye and will be brought to the hospital tomorrow. (a way of saving money).
We are in deep agony. Not once more. Her pain and helplessness are ours.
I can't stand these dark tunnels of fear.

Annie said...

I was loving the picture of your mom and then I read the line just beneath. Horrors. Reminded me of my mother. I'm in the tunnel with you. Praying for you and yours. Posting your mom on the prayer list. Can't do more. Wish I could. At times like this, I want to jump on a plane and fly to your side and take care of all of you while you take care of your mom.

Love
Annie

Felisol said...

It feels almost like a wonder that both Terry and you Annie were here about a minute after I posted.
You'll never know how comforting this feels, and how my pains are being soothed.

Sonja said...

This makes me sick Felisol,I almost feel like I am re-living my mother through your own mother, and it hurts so much when we see them strugle and stumble. My heart goes out to you and to her, and I pray right now that God will minister to both of you with His peace that passes understanding. It's for sure we can't make that up or invent it on our own. As your mother so beautifully says it... grace upon grace, that's my prayer.

Love you both.

Steve E said...

Ah, Felisol,

you may not know
which, is your stomach
or is it your heart
that hurts so?

yet, even in this fear
you all are so near
and midst the sorrowing pain
know all will be well again

PEACE!
Steve

Mrs. Mac said...

I hate to hear of this .. but I am glad it was not her hip that she broke. Still .. not good when the elderly break any bones. You mother still has a twinkle in her eye (in the photo). Give her a gentle hug from me. Lord give you all peace, strength and patience.

Love,
C

Amrita said...

So sorry to hear about your mother 's fall and injury. I know what its like. Will be prayin g for healing and comfort.

I know what the tunnel is like Felisol

Colleen said...

Dear Felisol, I left a comment but am not sure it went through. I just wanted to say that I am hurting for you reading this. I will lift your family and most especially your precious mother up in prayer. God bless you with peace during this difficult time.

Terry said...

dear felisol...it looks like you have a whole bunch of your friends with you in the tunnel....dad golden just phoned over to tell me that mom golden put back rub all over her mouth because her lips and chin are so chapped...oh boy!..bernie and i have been going over every two hours for the last couple of days to put the drops in her eyes that she needs till
tomorrow for the eye needle injection that she had in her right eye...i hope she doesn't try to put the back rub in the eye...oh that would be hurt pain and agony for sure!
i have been thinking so much of mom ljung and you and i will join with you in the tunnel...at least even with all its downs, i do believe that god is in there with us too and that it is the tunnel of LOVE...love terry

ps..the lord jesus sure knew what he was doing when he asked john to look after his mother[mary]...he surely did!

Felisol said...

Dearest Terry,
Yes we have been blessed with a peace beyond understanding. I was was frightened when we had to wait for six hours for the ambulance to bring Monten back to Sauda, but people did their best during vacation and holiday. Serina is of course an angel and together we managed to chat about our childhood and about the grand birthday celebration 5 days ago.
Monten's arm is broken and hurt, but the doctors decided against operation, and I found that wise.
Now I'm going to have a few hours sleep and so is Serina.
Am I not lucky to have her on the team?
I'll have to take an extra round for Mom Golden. Cannot ordinary Vaseline do the trick for her mouth?
And why don't you work shift or have home nursing on the eye dripping?
You must be totally exhausted, poor soul.¨Love & love again from Felisol

Crown of Beauty said...

Dear friend,
I was out for two days conducting a retreat for the women and just got back home this evening. But what a sad thing for your Monten when the picture you shared is so beautiful, so full of peace. I am keeping her, and you, Serina and Gunnar close to my heart and in my prayers.
God holds the future in His hands, and of course, that is the only safe place for all of us.

Much love\
Lidia

Debbie said...

I am so sorry to read of your mom's injuries. It is so hard to watch as our loved ones grow older and more frail. I am praying for you and for your mom.

Love,
Debbie

❀~Myrna~❀ said...

So sorry Felisol, so sorry. I pray for your mother's healing and that she will feel Jesus'comfort. .I am praying for you all. Love in Christ.

ps That is a wonderful pic of your mother.